:: Me, Myself && everyone else::

I am bubbly, i laugh at my self alot! i am bitchy, and honest. and i get a lil jealous. i do care what ppl think about me...i want approvale but at the same time i dont care bc i wont change! I am in love with a man who wears combat boots , i have two army brats and im army wife. i am proud!

[ppl break me down , its always my fault,] i get tats and have pirecings but its being a bad mom, i love my kids more than most ppl who dont have anything like me, I am living my life for my kids. its no longer about me who i am, but who me as a person can make them into amamzing men when there older!! which is a girl who doesnt take "normall" pics i do funny faces bc ummm thats [me] I dance around my house with mix matching socks on cleaning, i LOVE tattoos its my way of showing off who i am.maybe i am showing everyone that its ok to be your self do what you want bc ido. and i still manage to be the best momi can be

at somepoint in my life i didnt who i was, where i was going in life. Who i was gonna be , where i was gonna end up! i dont plane for the future i let it take me where i am suposed to go! My story has a fairy tale start a girl meets a boy and they fall in love, Long distance Love but Strong love, the kinda love we have has bumps,bruises...speed bumps! but at the end of the day hes the man i am running to be in his arms the man who sees through me for me. when im chillin with no make up on, in comfy pjs. and hairs a mess hes my man the man who see's me as a beautiful person, Not just as a Mom or wife. But for me! i love him for this!! He makes me giggle like a lil kid when i see how much love he has for me with a simple look my knees wanna break down bc he makes me feel weak!!

I found out who i am along this journey,no matter where i am gonig in life , I am a mother and a wife but mostly a mother i want to give my kids better than i ever had, i want to be there superhero i want them to grow up knowing its ok to make mistakes and fall in love more than once and im always there. my kids may make me want to Pull my hair out whos doesnt && others may not see them as perfect and in that sense id laugh bc they are. there loved happy and healthy they have imaginations and laughter to light up a room. to me i have the best kids ever!i want them to grow up happy and love there life! i want the best for them and i will be there making sure they get it!

Friendies:I am akward, shy. outgoing. i dont give a shit, I am punkish with prep! i change my mind like i change my clothes.! this i know, but i am soo tired of ppl not talkin to me after we are all close bc i have bad days were i question everyone in my life, if you knew the disapoinments i have in my life, maybe youd understand why i push so hard to have good ffriends in my life! So if i seem like im pushing you away and your walking away ok then theres no fight in you to come back when i put up my guard, or the phone workds both ways! ? idk i just want more true firends and i want some of my old ones back! some times its ok to admit this! bc i miss some of you biznatches!!

you cant fake love

i could never fake my love for you, that smile of yours knocks me off my feet, that lil laugh you get when you dont really think my joke is funny but you laugh anyways bc you dont want to hurt my feelings, or when i wake up and your tip toeing around so you dont wake me.! i could never pretend to love you, it doesnt work that wayy. I may Not be perfect i may not have realized much

before., missing you makes it so much easier for me to see whats not right in front of my face! i love how you make me feel like the ONLY girl in the world!&& no matter what happens your always by my side. I am so so, proud to be your wife. I am so giggly that your Myne! you will always be my PRINCE!!! Bradley David Williams THIS GIRL LOVES THE CRAP OUT OF YOU && THAT FACE!:)

..have i told you latley how much i miss you!!

I miss you more than i can put into words! this song is for you babe:)

latley the kids have been sick on and off the docs said troy has double pink eye( but if you ask me its not! )

so ive been disenfecting, and wshing everything and blah i am so exsausted!

on a goodnote ive never been that girl who put toys toghother for the kids that was brads job, inever put the crib togother or toddler bed ect.., and since this deployment ive pulled the crib apart put togother toys, and troy toddler bed., and now both boys are sharing a room in there beds and bboth asleep



"The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly"

short blog, but i just wanna let my soldier now i miss him everyday

..insperation comes easily for me

theres many times when the boys are pushing me to the edge, where i feel like crying. Then i see there smiles or hear there laughs or i get the "i love you mom" & or troys lil kisses. Makes life seem so much easier makes the hard times not so hard.,
As many of you know my nephew Royce is very sick, He has a diaseas Known as Cystic Fibrosis which at the end of this blog itll explain what that is.,
Anyways, Hes really sick right hes been admitted to childrens hospital && I hate that i am here right now, i would give anything to be there with him and my sister. Royce is Not someone who you see as a sick child, if you were to see him and not know he had this disease you would Never put two and two togother., He is an amazing child, I know many times we turned his bedroom into the park or the zoo or Even Space, His imagination is out of this world. He is truly my insperation. He makes my heart melt He is always smiling even when he doesnt feel Good.
His mom, my sister. Is so strong and such an amamzing person., she is one of the best ppl i have in my life. She will give you the shirt of her back She makes is smiling when shes weak, she is a hero to me i cant even begin to explain how proud i am, and how i look up to her as a mother && a sister.

so when you feel like your day has been tough, or whatever it may be. lets think about how blessed we are., I am so proud of my Nephew for being so strong at such a young age when he is allowed to be upset and weak he is smiling and being an insperation to many.






What is cystic fibrosis?
Cystic fibrosis (CF) is a genetic disease. It affects the way in which salt and water move in and out of the body’s cells. In cystic fibrosis patients, thick mucus causes blockages of small tubes and ducts in the body. This mostly affects the lungs and the digestive system. When someone has cystic fibrosis, chloride (part of what makes up salt) cannot pass through the cells normally. And more sodium (the other part of salt) may be pumped through the cells than usual—at least in the lungs. Both of these problems may cause lung mucus and fluid to be thicker and stickier than normal and sweat to be saltier than normal.

What causes cystic fibrosis?
Cystic fibrosis is present from birth, yet signs may not show up for weeks, months, or years afterward. Everyone has 2 genes when they are born that determine whether or not they have cystic fibrosis. Both of these genes need to be abnormal for someone to have cystic fibrosis. The only way to get cystic fibrosis is to inherit 1 cystic fibrosis gene from each parent. Typically, each parent of a cystic fibrosis patient has only 1 cystic fibrosis gene and does not have cystic fibrosis.

What does cystic fibrosis do to the lungs?
People with cystic fibrosis have airway secretions that are drier, stickier, and harder to clear than normal secretions. This thick mucus can block the bronchial tubes in the lungs, and can lead to gradual blockage, infection, and lung damage.

this is the new tattoo i got for my Royce:)

....dont feel sorry for me!

I hear all the time " i feel so sorry for you, it must be hard being an army wife, i could never do it, i could never be away from my husband for that long"...


please give me a break dont feel sorry for me, i am a strong girl i dont feel sorry for my self or my family. we have rough times just like any other type of family out there. I am Proud of my husband he isnt gone doing nothing hes fighting for our country for his family for everyones family. So please do me a favor next time you think about saying those words to me just dont. I am in love with a solder he is amoung the bravest and they all have strong proud military wives standing behind them. Do not feel sorry for us. Ugh ;/ sry i just hate it., when my husband signed the papers to join the army i knew at some point he would deploy and yes it sux realllly bad and i miss him more than i could ever possibly begin to explain, but im not asking for anyone to feel sry for me its smthing i cant help but feel but we are strong. I am so beyond proud of my husband and all the other soldiers out there and there families!!

almost 2 months!!

Im not a great blogger and you might think of the time i have at nite i would be able to blog more but i just find my self drownding my self in music at nite i love music that plays so perfect to how i am feeling that nite. frustrated annoyed happy or sad its amazing. keeps me up all nite though so prolly not a good idea. I have been letting ppl in my life latley like old friends and new ones then they let me down. I hate letting ppl like that in my life not only are you effecting me but your effecting my kids., they get attached to ppl its so hard to tell them that there not around anymore. So time to weed out the ppl who only want me around when its good for them i have plenty of amazing ppl in my life i dont need others in it:) No more nice girl! -said my peace. On a good note ive kicked 2 months of this deployments ass so ready to have  my soldier home with me and the boys. i miss him like insanley. He is an amamzing man and father im pretty sure i dont deserve him. Ive been told so much since weve been togother how lucky i am to have him and i really am! No other man will ever amount to him!! his love towards me is so much like a fairy tale i am his princess and he treats me better than i ever deserve! I love him with my whole heart!

..,Like realllly?!

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
just to see what id be like




I am so sick of people tryin to bring others down its not as if we dont have enough shit on our plates. Since when did ppl thrive on bringing others down. If its not your life or your problems then Shhhsh! what You think is a problem may not be to other ppl or maybe a solved problem that doesnt need to be brought up again! This deployment has been really rough for me im dealing with things ive never thought id go through im seeing sides of ppl i didnt wanna see for that matter im seeing the same thing in my self . Every day is a learning experince learning how to deal with lonliness and not sleeping bc your afraid to close your eyes bc of the boogie-man!? yes i said it im afraid of him or her im not sure. anywhos why dont we let ppl deal with there lifes in there own way and step back and either be there or dont wont hurt my feelings i dont need ppl who are going to judge me or for that matter fake ppl!? I am bitchy and obnoxuis and honest and have my "blonde" moments i also am insecure and sometimes i really to good at putting on a smile. So therefore take it or leave it just please dont try to bring me down or do harm in my life bc its not gonna work! (peace)